Wednesday, July 18, 2012
All the leaves are brown
I've no words. They're gone like yesterday's garbage. I've had depression and BPD all my life and now for the first time I'm in hospital. The loony bin has me in its harsh and sterile jaws.
Admittedly it's a posh, private institution and it's a voluntary admission but I'm still terrified as hell.
I'm coming off 200mg of Solian ( antipsychotic ), 180mg of Cymbalta and 200mg of Lamotrigine. The side effects are a hell ride, hence the hospitalisation.
I've been reduced to praying for it all to end. I'm writing to you from my iPhone in the middle of a lonely night. I miss Neil and Charly. I want to go home.
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Don't be frightened, you are there to get help. You will be home soon, hang in there and know you are in my thoughts!
Hugs,
Yaya
Hang in there. I have done the whole hospital gig myself. It is scary at first, but I actually made some friends, crazy as that sounds.
Thinking of you Lil. This will pass and soon you will be home with your Neil and Charly. In the meantime have some hugs.
ml
xxx
Thank you so much guys, your support means a lot xx
I know. Every time I was there I was terrified, but nothing's as bad as your first. Hand in there. It DOES GET BETTER
I nominated you for a Very Inspirational Blogger Award :)
http://ptsdcreativewriting.wordpress.com/2012/07/18/very-inspirational-blogger-award/
It's been a few days since you made this post and I do hope things are better for you now.
Hang in there! You can overcome this.
XOXO
d'Arty
God Lil! I am SO sorry to hear this. I am sending so much love to you. I am sorry I have only just seen this. I had no idea you were still writing.
You are in my thoughts, hun.
xxx N
I hope things got better for you in the hospital. We're waiting for an update to hear that you're alright. Love from the blogsphere. x
Coming off meds is no joke. I am glad you are in a safe environment while you go through this. My heart is with you Lil. xoxo
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