Joy lies in the fight, in the attempt, in the suffering involved, not in the victory itself


Monday, December 5, 2011

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger

I've been applying for new jobs, as this INTERMINABLE contract I'm stuck in finally finishes in January. I started here in March, on a three month data entry job, and am still here nine long, boring, pointless months later. I'm really bad at this job, as I've said here before. Well, not REALLY bad. But not brilliant, which is rare, as I usually over-perform and show off and am the star employee. I just can't get my head around the logistical nature of this data, and sometimes make errors. My boss is really nice but has to point out said errors.


Anyway, one of the outcomes of this dreadful job (apart from the fact that I miss so many days of work due to hating it...) is that my employment mojo is completely gone. I want to stay in government and have been browsing the job sites, but even when I clearly CAN do the job, part of me says "no you can't, you're crap". This is partly due to our old friends depression and low self-esteem, but I think a big part of it is my current experience. I've never been rubbish at a job )-: I am such an over-achiever, perfectionist type that even from school days I've wanted to be the best student/employee as well as the most popular. Until I get bored anyway...

I feel like I am at a major crossroads in my career, where I need to step up and find something challenging and interesting that I can achieve in. That's why I left my last proper job, the part-time one, because I wanted something more. And lord help me, I got trapped here in data entry, leather elbow hell.


I also struggle with applying for government jobs because of the selection criteria. I don't know if they have them in other countries, but in Oz every government job requires you to address a set of attributes, showing how you have that attribute and using examples. Sometimes they're easy like "good communication skills" but other ones are extremely specific and technical and hard to waffle/bluff about.

In other news, I put up our Christmas tree. This is pretty big news, as it's the first time I've done it since I left Mr Ex - and when we were together, HE insisted on doing it and was extremely anal about it, and HATED tinsel. Bah humbug. Needless to say, this year I added tinsel. I used some of my decorations and some of Neil's, so it's a genuine combination tree for our first Christmas living together (-:

All it needs now is some presents underneath, which I am intending to wrap tonight. I'm feeling quite in the mood for Christmas this year, although I will miss the month's vacation that I used to get with my last job! In this job, I get a week off which is nice. The family are spending three days at a resort, with Christmas lunch in a restaurant, so it should be less stressful than previous years. We are spending Boxing Day with Neil's best friends, whom I also adore, which will be great fun. I am trying hard to be positive, and stay motivated. Fight, fight, fight!!


Sairs said...

I know what you mean about the selection criteria. I have done so many of them now though that I can cut and paste. They still suck however. Glad you got your Xmas tree up, Moo has destroyed ours already. Glad you're trying to stay positive and if you can, maybe I can too :)

Anonymous said...

I am so excited for you to be getting out of this current job. It sounds like data entry hell. And good for you getting the tinsel on the tree and going to a fight night. I love boxing. Things will get better in the job front...they have to. :)

Borderline Lil said...

Thanks for the support my friends! About Boxing Day, sadly it's not about boxing )-: It's the day after Christmas, I don't know WHY it's called Boxing Day but it is here and in the UK I believe. I like MMA better than boxing, but a good fight is always fun. I think our Boxing Day will be more about swimming, gossiping and eating while the boys play poker!

Just Be Real said...

Oooo weeee..... interesting title to this post caught me. Even in the title speaks truth. Glad for your though with the move. Also, thank you for your encouraging words to me of recent. Blessings.

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